The Forum Magazine
Al-Anon's monthly magazine, The Forum, contains many personal stories of inspiration, some of which are made available each month on the Internet by authorization of Al-Anon Family Group Headquarters, Inc.
“He is not living his life for me,” I thought as I shuffled into the cold kitchen. It was three o’clock in the morning. I was in search of an Al-Anon daily reader. My son, my only child and someone I loved more than anyone, had been arrested, spent the night in jail, and was in more trouble than I ever imagined possible.
When I went to my first Al-Anon meeting, I didn’t think I was really in the right place because the alcoholic in my life didn’t really drink that much anymore. She had managed to get into prescription painkillers. Only a few weeks before, she had overdosed and had been placed on life support. As she was taken to the hospital, I fell to my knees and looked blankly at the sky. I had no feelings left, no God to pray to, and no prayer to pray.
Sometimes, I am asked why I still go to “those meetings.” Yes, I have been in Al-Anon for a very long time, but my reply is simple. I came to Al-Anon because of alcoholism, but I stayed because of my life. I was overwhelmed with the effects of living with an alcoholic and all the problems associated with trying to raise five children. Al-Anon became my lifeline.